This documentary investigates the growing influx of crystal methamphetamine usage within the gay populace. Through the testimonies of a several gay men, we understand of the drug’s magnetism, its assurance, and why its reputation is rising. Some of the people are ongoing users, and they expose their lives to us while under the continual drug effect. Others are former drug addicts who have succeeded to climb back from the bottom to which their obsession brought them. Throughout, the film is a courageous look at the destructive properties of the dependence to this very severe drug. Meth is an amine derivative of amphetamine, C10H15N, used in the form of its crystalline hydrochloride as a central nervous system stimulant, both medically and illicitly. For Ryan the high was so good that the pain that he was feeling because of the disconnection from his family, the society, and from not knowing where he fits, it allowed him to escape from it. For a long period of time, the first six months that he was using, he had it under control. But once that door is open the door actually disappears. because once you hand control over to “Tina” you ain’t going to drive. there is no way. James was an average disaffected gay man; he had self esteem issues, growing up in a very middle class environment. He always thought that if he made something of himself and had lots of money and the material toys and possessions it was going to suddenly validate him. Ten years ago he got the six figure job, he got the BMW, he met the right guy. but it was never enough, nothing was ever going to be enough. In the early 90’s people were looking for a way that they can rock out and there was something new that was emerging – the circuit scene. In that environment crystal meth was allowed to kind of blossom. The fear of not fitting was gone.
