
Why You Do This
Michael Dafferner works as a satellite engineer by day and sings for the math-core metal band Car Bomb by night, and this film follows him across three years of touring to ask whether the second job is worth the cost. In 2007 he takes his first U.S. tour and finds that playing an obscure genre in an unknown band delivers none of the validation he expected. A 2008 run opening for goth-punk acts Gorgeous Frankenstein and Bella Morte leaves the band thousands of dollars in debt and burns through his vacation days. By 2009 Car Bomb lands a tour with Gojira and The Chariot, finally playing for real crowds, and Dafferner uses the access to interview musicians including members of Lamb of God and drummer Richard Christy about what success actually means and what it costs. The conversations turn to the mechanics of surviving as a musician now: low streaming payouts, constant touring, and Patreon as a substitute for record sales. Dafferner keeps the camera on the unglamorous parts, the debt and the cramped van, alongside the reasons he keeps going back.